Thinking it over really hard

I have been thinking about alot of stuff in the last couple days. Its strange how everyone in the world is different yet the same at the same time. We are all our individual self and no one person is connected, but at times they can feel an emotion or thought at the same time someone else may be feeling it to connect for that spilt second.

we need to space our selves more, break away from all the drama. I guess you can call it taking a step back.

Ok i have just finished reading a very intresting thing, i feel that it is speaking to me to in a way. Its telling me not to give up on the person that i am, i wanna be able to trust people, but everytime i do i am hurt badly, emotionally i am wrung out. I have realized that caring for other people is what i do, i have let people walk all over me in the past. I won't let that happen anymore. I must do what i think is right. I will not be controlled by the popular mind.

I am thinking of things that i miss really bad. There are times where i get so anxious that i think im not going to make it past the moment, but then i do and i can go on living.

I have to much "what ifs" going on in my head, if one small step can change YOUR PATHWAY IN TIME! this mean we have no control , every step is a different direction but they all lead to the same place, we just don't know it yet.

I am experiencing that moment where there is nothing in my head to think off, i feel that i have no cares nothing to worry about. I have been doing it alot lately, i think to deal with this situation i am in. I know i shouldn't be spacing so much but it really does help. Right now though i think i am caring to little about whats going on around me.

I want someone to give me their hand and just tell me that they are going to be there for me, Give me that feeling that i am wanted by them. I want to take care of some one, and not just anyone - that perfect one ( not perfect in the literal term, but perfect in the term of fitting with me in love)

waiting for love.....i can wait if it means that ill be happy forever once i find it.