Shes got such a dirty mind...

Everyone must watch this, then you will see why block part is sooooo goddamn amazing!

i just realized that i am really tired. I am gonna go look for my MIA necklace tomorrow i have a feeling its were i was fighting with lisa or matt. I hope its around there cause then i might cry if its not.

I got ice cream in the face today. It was actually pretty cool because i got to eat free ice cream while i was working!

i can't take it at mcdonalds anymore, my face is protesting, its not a cool place to be, sooo much grease in the air.

night

Does this look like a Wal-mart?

I went for a run today and it was amazing! I ran for a long time, I think the longest I have run so far without stopping inbetween. I was sweating like crazy after though, I even was wearing one of those 80's headbands. I probably looked like a freak!

So I have been think its time for me to get a new pair of shoes! I have my globes and they are pretty sweet shoes, but I need something a little less big! I saw these shoes today on this guy who came into the store, they were navy blue and yellow (well what do you know, same color as the ones I have right now) but they were pretty funky, I liked them. Maybe ill go out sometime soon and start looking for a new pair of sweet shoes. They can't be white though, I hate white shoes, like GODDDDD!

Oh yes today some bitch came in giving me the attitude, so I decided to give it right back, I don't let anyone think they can talk down to me for no reason!

conversation :

Customer: what's the special for today *looking at me like I am a piece of shit*
Me: Its the Big Xtra today! *cheerfully*
Customer: Why? It can't be, it was the cheese burgers at the Wal-mart! *more attitude*
Me: Does this look like the Wal-mart?
Customer: ...... I know its not the Wal-mart
Me: well.....Then your problem is solved!
Another one:

coworker ordering an ice cream cone

co-worker: Can I get a cone
me: ya sure
co-worker: can you put it in a cup
me: yup
co-worker: thanks
me: here you are *handing her the cone in cup as requested*
co-worker: can I have a spoon?
me: see you wouldn't need one if you had just kept it in the cone! *chuckling to myself*

the manager heard and also laughed too!

I don't have a tattoo, its a practise run. I wanna see if i really could live with it for the rest of my life!

Anyway i am gonna try and post this goddamn blog for the last time (stupid errors make me retype it!) and take a nap

peace out

Me and Elizabeth Taylor Chilling out....One of my most pointless blogs ever

Headlock .......

Distant flickering,
Greener scenery,
This weather's bringing it all back again.
Great adventures,
Faces and condensation,
I'm going outside and take it all in.

You say too late to start got your heart in a headlock,
I don't believe any of it.
You say too late to start with your heart in a headlock,
You know you're better than this.

We're a different pair,
Just something out of step,
Throw a stranger an unexpected smile.
With big intention,
Still posted at your station,
Always on about the day it should have flown.

You say too late to start got your heart in a headlock,
I don't believe any of it.
You say too late to start with your heart in a headlock,
You know you're better than this.
Afraid to start, got your heart in a headlock,
I don't believe any of it.
You say too late to start with your heart in a headlock,
You know you're better than this.

You've been walking,
You've been hiding,
And you look half-dead half the time.
Monitoring you, like machines do,
You've still got it I'm just keeping an eye. X2

You know you're better than this,
Come make a start got your heart in a headlock,
No I don't believe any of it.
You say too late to start with your heart in a headlock,
You know you're better than this.
Afraid to start got your heart in a headlock,
I don't believe any of it.
You say too late to start with your heart in a headlock,
You know you're better than this.

Imogen Heap ~ Speak for yourself

Don't get me wrong, i love animals!

Its just that sometimes they piss me off, especially the racoons (those hairy bastard's ripped our garbage apart again last night) .

I think i got a concussion from that one time when Lisa dropped me on my head the other night. It still was hurting this morning, and i got the same feeling as i did last time i had a concussion! I kinda feel bad for my head because i knock it around alot and don't really care for it as i should! ill try better next time.

Today worked sucked, i was so tired even though i actually went to bed early! And then i found out they extended my shift tomorrow.....they wanted me to start earlier too....i normally start at 8......They wanted me to start at 6 HAHAHAHahahahahHAHAHAHAHa Oh man ya right. I am supposed to being going out tonight and doing some drinking with the girls, so i really need that extra hour and a bit!

My steak was cooked way to much. I had got home and was ready for a steak dinner. I jumped in the shower and got all clean, and then it hit me "OHHH SHIT MY STEAK.........DALLASSSS NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO" She over did mine from a rare (the way i like it) to a weeeeeellllll done! I was really sad, but i didn't want her to feel bad. She was trying to do me a favor! Anyway i only ate half and to tell you the truth i don't know why i didn't just throw out the rest cause i know i am not going to eat that piece of dry crap ewww. I guess ill give it a day or two!

Yaawwwwnnnnnn, yawn yawn. I have been doing that all day! i could sure use a nap, but nope got to go out and get a 60 of vodka! thats alot of vodka

Im not in the mood to dress up or go out tonight, but i will go anyway cause i don't want to upset the girls! and plus i might run into Shannon at the Elixer, it could get intresting.....not really

so i'll go now!

DOn't Freak out or anything!

These are ideas i have for tattoos!

Shut your face you stupid ass Squirrel nobody wants to hear you cry about your dead girlfriend!

I was in the kitchen the other day when I heard this really annoying sound! I was curious as to what stupid asss creature could be making this horrid noise. Nothing other then a fucked up squirrel! He was looking at me making this noise, its hard to explain, like a buzz crossed with puking and chirping! I told you it was annoying!

So I threw pine cones at him ......*flashback*...........I was walking and I heard this crazy noise so I went looking for it and to my alarm there was a rattlesnake just a mere few feet away. I realized he could not bit me because of the position I was standing and also that he was trying to crawl up a rock! Anyway, I saw some pine cones so I started throwing them at him. It seemed like a cool idea at the time! ......

I then proceeded to tell him to shut up, but he won't, damn squirrel can't speak any English, like come on!

Whats with all the FUCKING color?

as a reach out to my key board from the Dead......

Last night i was why to into the fighting. My head is bumping, my shirt ..ohhh shit ill be right back

back, just cleaned it up, i think it will survive! My knee and elbow hurt like little bitches. Those stupid rocks punctured me! I wrestled with Lisa, Adas and Matt and WOw i got my asss kicked harder each time. well i obviously knew that i had no chance with lisa, Shes Ripped and is in fight classes, not sure what it is she does...maybe Tie Kwon Dho ......heheheee. And i think Adas is learning to fight from her, he actually kicked my ass this time................*Flash Back* ...... the time i kicked Adas' ass at kori's house! It was a sweet victory!..........Lisa dropped me on my head twice. I have some rather large bumps now. i think thats whats causing the headache orr it could have been the wine! Matt also kicked my ass, but thats only cause he had the last of me and i was pretty tried and drunk by then...so it really wasn't a fair fight, but i won't bitch about it cause i called on all the fights!!!

Sol Latino Was nice, the live band was cool, but that may be why they are going under. To bad, that place could be soooo sweet if they just didn't have such a crappy bar. Its stuffed behind a wall and its so hard to get at. I could see a little latin club there if they worked at it. the food was pretty good too (thanks Kori's DAD!). Onions were killer though, nightmare for my digestive system, ohh and all that cheese. fRig

I was a little upset earlier in the evening! kori Msn'd me around 6ish and told me he'd be there to pick me up in 35 min .............2hours later i get ahold of him, he's at the movies watching ....of all movies ...The 40 year old virgin. I was sooooo jealous and pissed at that same time, but i got over it! i can never stay mad for long...and plus they were coming to get me, how nice was that!

I made devil'd eggs today, sooo yummie!

This morning when i woke up my head hurt soo bad that i almost started to drink again to drown out the pain......i didn't though, instead i read Maxium. That Mag is sweet, i also watched some of the Michael Jackson DVD with Zout, otherwise known as Brown Man.
MJ is soooo scary, sometimes i wonder how people thought he was sooo great (people were so excited to see him that they were fainting), but then Thriller Came on and i was reminded!

Thats when i came to the conclusion that Michael Jackson Is GOD! hahaha

One Large sigh*** WELCOME TO LIFE!

my money issue is starting to fade, i feel alot better now. Work work work, school school school!

did you ever notice how scary money is?

A headline catchs the readers eye, So make it good!

I slept in today, waking up to Jackie putting a note on my bed with some pretty flowers that she picked for me! I don't really get to see her that much anymore because she is always going home to see Scott now! I miss her alot because i feel like i have gotten the closest to her out of anyone in the house, but at the same time, now i get t o spend it with Dallas and Lindsay.

There is about a week left of this house not being packed with girls! So i think im gonna enjoy it. I admit it will get kinda weird when everyone is here. The Phone bill will be alot harder to figure out ( i just spent about 45min getting the bill all sorted out) i don't really trust anyone else to do it! Lindsay had already done it once and she came up with numbers that were way off...i owed like 0.43 cents.

I forgot to mention the other day that i put a shelf under the sink! For anyone who does't know what i am talking about, under the sink in our house there was nothing but a big hole where the pipes went down under the house. It was retarded. I lost some cleaner to that hole once and i can only get it back if i crawl under the house...Yeah right! So anyway i put a shelf that covers the hole right over, i was impressed with my handy skills! and talking about handy skills i keep fixing things at work too. I seem to be reminding myself of my mother alot more lately........ohhh speaking of her, I Miss you Mom! and Dad too ofcourse!

peace out!!

living through someone else's experiences never did anyone any good

Got my schedual for next week and JEsus christ, this is the most i have actually worked at mcdonalds. They actually gave me lots of shifts....this means i have come to the realization that i have 2, thats right TWO, II more days of summer. THis is may sadness!!!;;;;;;::::..........fading.

Thinking about how i will miss the warm sun AND the simplicity of our outter wear, but i know it will eventually come back to me. So for now i am ready to dress for the cold! ah and did i mention go play in the most incredible snow Ever. Snowboarding here i come, Its on this season!

so i am very tempted to do something crazy with my hair, shit i got to stop playing with it. Lindsay thinks i should put some pink in it, but i am not a fan of pink. And then i won't be able to wear red. I strongly disagree with wearing those 2 colors together except for Valentines Day! but the red used for Valentines day is more of a pinkish based red, not like blood red, so i guess that doesn't even count.

Elizabeth Taylor has been making here appearences more frequent, and i don't mind at all. Its comforting to go out side, and think that at any time $he could pop by and say hello. $he seems like a very gental trusting Cat. $he reminds me of Bones, he is the best cat i ever had, always wanting to be around people. He would encourage me to go to bed too! I alwasy need that.

I felt pretty old today, everyone i work with is so young and i feel like crap, but i am just keeping my eye on the target, Bartending. I really think i have the skills and there would be some killer money too. I want to go get a smart serve, and maybe take a bar tending course, i think that would be a good thing to have if i wanna be able to travel the world. My Goals are set, now lets see if i can reach them.

I must stop putting shit in my hair! i am trying to get some funky styles, but it seems to make my hair look greasy. The hair cut Lindsay gave me the other days is not very satisfactory. The blonde needs to go, i think i want my brown back, or a darker dirty blonde. looking good shows you have respect for your self, it also gives you more confidence.

Anyway...tired per usual

off to the comfy bed

*picture of Greenlee McDonald, she is so beautful!

**i bet you didn't notice the free advertisment for mcdonalds...i sold out, but not on purpose!

Its almost a givin that you'll fall at the worst time!

Imogen Heap - Speak for yourself is sweet!

Tonight i had a really strange feeling rush over me while I was visiting a friend! There are those people, you know, the ones you click with really quickly. I had never experience unclicking though, tonight must have been the first time. it was a simple thing he said to me which sent my mind in an opposite direction and then another thing was said...that kept pointing in that same direction, it was kinda akward (used in the right context thank you very much!)

At the same time I have been robbed of my heart again. Sometimes I think I don't lock it up tight enough, but when I think of this situation I really don't see how I could have prevented it! To bad this person is taken, which makes it all the more ironic! I will never fall in love with a guy who's heart is all mine, but I have become accustom to dealing with this situation........Waiting it out! Ill try to keep pretending everything is normal, its a good way to do things at least for me.

on Friday a was knocked about at how blue Drew's eyes are! Everytime I looked at him, all I could see were these shining blue seas. Its almost like I could feel them reaching deep into my soul and pulling out all of my secrets. I kept eye contact to a minimum (thank no-one I was driving and had an excuse to do so)

What else to report, Oh yes I went for another run today! Made some tasty tomato sauce (took all day to make [simmering on the stove gives it the best flavor]) then for dinner I made pasta, AND OOOOOOHHH MY no-one it was sooooo good!

Oh about Imogen Heap, I have been listening to them today. I really enjoy a lot of their songs. I heard about them from Secret underwater Base
Headlock, Goodnight and Go, and Loose Ends are really original songs.

Goodnight and Go the lyrics to this song are great, I am sure just about everyone feels this why at some point! "why'd you have to be so cute, its impossible to ignore you, what else? You make me laugh so much, its bad enough we get along so well..Its always say goodnight and Go. Damn that person who stays on your mind all the time!

I should also mention that The Go! Team - Thunder, Lightning, Strike is pretty funky, I would recommend it to anyone that enjoys spinning or listening to spinned music!

Anyway im pretty beat and I think I need to get a lot more sleep to make up for this past weekend!

Night and peace out!

What a classy why to enjoy your evening~

This weekend was a blast. What started out as a one night kegger, turned into a three night stay including a great sunday roast.

My weekend:

Double Black Clothing Kegger. Greg, Del and Zack featured there new line of clothing, fancy stuff. I would have liked to get a shirt but i didnt have any money. There was two kegs and they were both destroyed. I ended up staying up all night..well till 7am watching movies then slept for all of saturday while watching more movies, i think the list goes like this Butterfly effect, Kill Bill I, Casino then after a nap that was brutally destroyed by Alex We watched Road Trip, Resavoiur Dogs, Goldmember and Farris Boullers Day Off . Saturday night got more beer and drank! Sunday had a sweet breakfast and went swimming Started drinking about about 3 and then had a wonderful Sunday roast (inculding eggplant cassarole, ribs, Malies (tomatos)and a crazy salad i didn't have cause it had onioins in it), that night was good. I sat out in the screen porch with Delio's Dad and girlfriend drinking red wine. after they went to bed, Shawn Del and Zach came up and we sat talked and drank. We had coffee and Ammeretto it woke me up like crazy, my body was tired, but my mind was so awake! i think we were up till like 5 or 6 i am not sure. left today to come home. I almost didn't want to leave, it was so chill there the whole weekend!

Did some gardening and laundry and now am about to go to bed

peace out

Martini! its the most impractical way to drink!

LAst night we were drinking Martini's and i found that they are the most impractical drinks EVER. You can't even take one step without it spilling all over the place! So for now on when i drink, i will drink out of a sippie cup (no MORE alcohol crimes for this girl)

Lastnight Shannon also came over, we watched Donnie Darko (the best movie EVER). I also visited Christian for a bit, he's on a rampage to clean his room and make it all "GANGSTA SHIT" some guys are just to weird. And then there are the guys who use bounce - in a sentence "I gotta Bounce" news flash , You are WHITE! LOL, now the people i know that say that are nice people, i enjoy their presence, but at the same time its just kinda strange!

I am heading out to Raxxs now

gotta bounce ...

She's Hearing Voices

This song is way to enjoyable

also Price of Gas - Bloc Party as well is such a fun song, i think i might just have a little "BUST IT" session.

OH another amazing song is SEXY - The Black Eyed Peas. This song has been going strong for over a year now! Top Notch!

I listened to the new Oasis album Don't Believe the Truth today, Fabulous! Its similar to their album (What's The Story)Morning Glory?, but you can tell that they just are naturally good at creating songs, everyone on its own, is so enjoyable! Let There Be Love is mellow and romantic, yet rocky at the same time and it has these build-ups which makes my hair stand on end!

The RUNNING front

Dallas and I went for a run today. We took a tour around the Marina and saw some cool sail boats, all i can think about though is kayaking, I WANNA KAYAK sooooooo bad. The Boreal Muktuk, is the one i have had my eye on forever! She's a beauty!

Well i better get upstairs and start the night UP!

I watched the teen Choice awards and Cried inside!

Tonight the Teen Choice Awards were on, I, normally not being one to watch a lot of TV, decided I would watch it with my housemates! I always remember there being something special about them. Nope I was wrong! Two words SHALLOW WORLD, Choice Hottie award, what the Hell is that! And Gwen Stefani and her stupid award (I forget the name of it but it was along the lines of "your the richest most successful hottie and you really don't know what to do with your self" award , what the hell kind of world are we letting our children grow up in. I feel a sharp pain of purity washing away. Our world is filled with wants and needs and beauty being everything! Spend all your time and money to be Popular, Famous, I don't think its all necessary.

Man The more I think about it, the more I want to pick up my iPod and book it to some isolated island and live there for the rest of my life (obviously there would be power for me to plug my computer in, so I could charge and update my beloved iPod {god bless his soul}) See this is what I mean, we have created a life where we need things to live and if we don't have them we either break down or become one with nature and never return to "NOW"

SInce when did people become so attached to things that did not have feelings and thoughts of their own.

Would I cry if my iPod were smashed? Yes, yes I would, I must be totally honest,I would probably cry for a week and to tell you the truth I don't think anything could replace him ..except for another iPod (although I would be reminded of The cracks and the pain and the Nothingness everytime I were to look at the new one)

how has this happened without me noticing

My friend Nicole came across a beautiful iPod (she obtained it for free) She has named it the LMO (Little Musical One) This attachment to iPods is overwhelming. How did it happen.

We can all agree though that they are one of the greatest inventions and if you can't admit that then you obviously don't have a passion for music!

Did I tell you I love MUSIC?

Oh and that brings me to my next point. I found that I would be happy if all I had was music. Its perfect because its always there for you, no matter what time of day or night, it won't stop till you tell it to, and it fulfills you no matter what mood your in. It conforms to your every move

Ohhhhhhhhhh it hurts!

I hurt my finger today at work, I was cleaning a table and my hand ran into a metal pointy thing, It separated my nail from my right useless finger (the one beside the pinky) some may call it the ring finger! Holy shit did it hurt. It was one of the most painful experiences I have had (not including the pain of mono and smashing my toe with a heavy tape dispenser) I SCreaMed pretty loud when it happened and just really didn't know what to do! My finger still hurts now, when ever I type the letters P,O,M,L and K my finger has a shot of pain sent through it! I wonder how long it will take to stop hurting?

Reporting about the run/walks

I have been keeping up, so far I have run three days in a row, I missed today cause I worked a long shift and when I got home it was dark (its scary at night) But tomorrow I plan to go for a run in the morning and then to the gym and then another run at night to make up for missing today! I was so disappointed at how out of shape I am, you may notice how I use run/walk! Thats cause I start off running and end up walking, BUT I do run again once I feel I have regained my energy so it actually should be called run/walk/run/walk/run/walk/run/walk/run, I always like to end with a sprint to my house! I'm thinking of running in a new direction tomorrow, maybe all the way down king St. It will be a hell of a trek (for me)but I think I am up for a challenge! I think my goal is to get to the Montreal bank

I was reading this blog Secret Underwater base I may not compare to this guys 30 mile runs (holy shit I couldn't do that if someone paid me $1000) and high tech gear, but I will set the goal and I won't let my self down this time! I need to invest in a pair of running shoes though, that's key!


So I should probably get to bed, I have a long day ahead!

'til next time

This impossible yet addicting game!

If you figure out how to beat it, let me knoW

HAPLAND

HAPLAND2

Did i ever tell you how hot Jake Gyllenhaal is!

This is Jake Gyllenhaal and its obvious he is so HOT! if i could i would date him


Like seriously Look at HIM

....i am drunk sorry , the alcohol is stinging my throat


its MOnday now and i am still getting pictures of JAke to put on my site
everyone is just as good as the last. And his sister is so pretty

24 hour BLOC PARTY MARATHON!

GOOD AFTERNOON! I have just awoken and i have come across the fact that i have been listening to Block Party for just shy of 12 hours....so i figure why not make it 24! HEHE sometimes i am so totally amuzed with myself! SO any way heres the time line.

Started at 4:30AM

it is now 3:38PM

12 hours and 52 minutes to go and i am loving it all so far! YESSSSSS



well i only did 17 hours which makes me sad, but i am happy to say that the only reason i stopped was to eat and go out to the bar! and i don't think i can stay up till 4:30 today, i am just rediculus! But i love BLOC PARTY

Fuck you blogger, why you got to screw with me SO much?

Good evening, its Sunday night. What a good Sunday it was! I went for another jog today, I am impressing myself. I woke up around 12ish and felt rested ...FINALLY! Me and Linds made breakfast, eggs and toast (i made the eggs and she made the toast) I am very proud to report that she did not burn the toast! (sarah told me a store about her friend Brad, whos only job was to make the "Toast", by the way he was insulted, but he burnt it, every single slice, it seemed almost like he did it on purpose to get back at her! There's an idea SARAH)

onward with sunday: Ummmm i washed some more dishes, watched TV (Family Guy, reruns of Malcom in the Middle, which by the way is a really messed up show, and The Simpsons) Made myself an energizing meal before my crazy jog.

Right now i am listening to Succexy - Metric, good tune, i never can get enough of it. Its got pop or something!

I watched Donnie Darko again, that movies is like a drug to me. I have lost count of how many times i have watched it and i think i have watched it with every single person i know. Its at the top of my Favorite movies List (coming soon)

latest thing i did today was take out the trash. I am starring at the massive pile of crap on my desk, its so overwhelming (it reminds me of those iSpy books, i love those books, i used to spend so much time starring at them thinking somehow they would make me a more intellagent person)

Yesterday when i got home, i noticed that Delio is having a party on friday and i am so going too! He made the sweetest invitation and lives within walking distance of me so i can drink all night then walk home with out a care in the world, what a kick ass invitation. (i would enclose a picture of it if i had one)

Went out lastnight to MyBar, met up with Shannon and Justin. We talked for about 2 hours then decided to get a bite to eat. mcdONALDs OHNO!!! i drove Justin home and then drove Shannon Home, i think we sat in his drive way for 2 1/2 hours talking. He, like me, has had very bad luck with relationships, although, to tell you the truth i think he has had worse luck then me (i didn't take into account that he is older the me, this may be the factor that proves my luck is still bad)

RANTING ABOUT BLOGGER

Friggn blog, before i had problems with crazy people commenting on my site, now i have blogger Bots as kori reports

and every time i try to bold something this long computer command is written around it. Why?


hillary! you screwed it up ... i like the way it sounds!

my hooks fell off my wall, i am so pissed cause now i have to go to a hardware store and get new plugs (you know what that means eh?) i will have to drive there and i don't want to because Gas is like a dollar now, which by the way is totally rediculus , and i blame it all on G.W. Bush. Don't make me kill you know Bush, Bush just cause your rich doesn't mean everything will be ok ...ASSHOLE, think of all the poor kids in africa - no relavence

Close your eyes for a brief moment and imagine you are one single particle, floating in the air. You have no feeling or emotions. all you do is BE, no interaction with any other particle. Perfect solitude!

SnaPPPPP

ZINgggggg

Because of my mother i have brought back the "anyone can post" feature! please feel free! I love hearing from everyone ....even you crazies, sorry JK.

i have covered enough for this fine night, enjoy the rest of yours.

ourivour .....if thats how you spell it

holy shit monkey...Greedy POst, he fudged the Date to be 1th!

im completely drunk now and i have wrote all over my legs with marker. One of them says "I AM STUPID" and the other says "NO YOU ARE", you are crossed out, "No IAM ARE!" NO iam are crossed out, finally saying "NO IAM!"

It will all be a blurr tomorrow when i wake up. Drew stopped by and encouraged me to drink more...i blame it all on KYLE, Delio and Drew! YOu all made me drunk, im going to bed now
screw you!

Today I did a stupid thing well actually that happened ...

I broke it off with my boyfriend. Its over I can't deal with all of this boyfriend girlfriend stuff. I don't even know what to say, maybe that I have a nack for not thinking before I do things. It was all of 8 days, I am a pathetic person. I just wanna stay single, and focus on not fucking my life up anymore.

In a world full of evil, the good is looked past and all else rests in a frozen state.

I will go about my normal life, well normal in my eyes, not in others.

I will try my best to do good in school and hopefully one day i will be able to travel the world, be a wandering soul. I would enjoy that!

have you ever had the life sucked out of you

Did i mention that i truck ran me off the road on my way home? Well it did and it was the scariest thing, although it surprised me, at the time i was calm as ever. i eventually got back on the highway, the thing that pissed me off the most was that i honked at the truck and he still didn't notice me. Some big asshole was trying to race everyone too and would dodge in and out of traffic, he mouthed the words "FUCK YOU" when i wouldn't let him in the fast lane. I thought that was very immature, i could see his wife was not please with the way he was acting because he kept slowing back down, then when he thought she was asleep he'd speed'er up again.

Home:

So the Firefighters dance was ok, but afterwards it was a bust. I was excited to go back to Joe and Eliza's house and drink some more, but they were all so trashed that one by one they all passed out.

Went to fitzy's southside with Matt, Sarah and Jess, had a few drinks there, then we went to Dooley's.....i hate that place cause me and matt got kicked out for not being of age during the middle of the day. ohh its sounds retarded but well it just pissed me off because the age thing doesn't come into effect till 8pm or soo. They were just being jerks...Anyway we played pool there and had more drinks, i started off sucking like crap but then got back into the groove when i had a few more drinks in me. I won a drink cause matt didn't think i could make a shot. I was proud of that. After Dooley's we went to the Georgian Downs, Jessica wanted to gamble. She only hit the bet button 4 times and she won $31. i told her to cash out while she was ahead, so she did. To much money is wasted on gambling. Its really funny i was walking around, matt had given me one quarter to play and i thought maybe i could find that special machine. Well i didn't find a special one, but i had put the quarter in and pulled the thingy.....Nothing, as i was walking away i heard soemone say "YOu want some more?". I turned around to see this old creepy man looking at me. I kinda pretended i didn't hear him and walk/ran away.

we eventually left the Casino, i blew a whopping $6 haha i don't like to take risks in those places. All around i had a fun night and found out matt wanted to try his moves on me ....well to bad i have a boyfriend now ;).

I got an awesome new cell phone, well its not really new, its a V300, a serious upgrade from what i had before, now i can actually talk on it without the battery going dead and the camera feature is so nifty. I take pictures of everything now!

Today i went to the good Ol' Doctor, got a check up and some more perscriptions (jesus i wish i didn't need any medication). I am trying to make my self get a new doctor but its sooooo much effort. and i like the one i have, i just have to drive 3hours now to get to him.

Man that reminds me, i am going blind again, i have horrid eye site and i have been putting off the eye check up just cause i hate them, the doctor always uses this weird air gun and blows air into my eye....Its the worst feeling ever and i always have build ups were my eyes start to tear and i can't keep them open before he pulls the trigger.

I am so happy that the TB ordeal is over with, its been about six months but i seem to continue to be reminded of it, not sure why, maybe because it sucked alot!

I was wonder how i am going to die, not that i want to right now, but i am just really curious ( i know curiousity Killed that cat, but thats not gonna stop me) hummm will it be the Big C (cancer) ewww i hope not, its so ravaging. I wouldn't mind being eatin by a shark. I think that would be a cool way to die, then my kids would have a story to tell their kids (thats if i have any).

i am hoping i can do one more outing tonight with my chums from home before i head back up to kingston! I need a nap so i can get charged up!

later

It happend so fast

Tomorrow is the Big day! PArty onn, i hope nothing goes wrong, i was thinking about a keg, but i am not sure if that will fly.

Im having a bit of a time adjusting to this "new" feeling. im really feeling good about the housemates right now, they make me feel happy about everything and they are always there for me. I don't think i have ever been so close to anyone in my life...well except my sisters and mom.

I have come to the conclusion that i seem to get used alot, not mentioning any names but i am sure you can come to your own conclusions, i feel like i did a lot of really nice things for this person, we never had a relationship, but were good friends. Then i was just dumped off like an old shoe. Something that has been replaced. I admit i am hurt by this, but i will learn from it, im gonna be strong. I am sure there are other things i should be learning to, but "mistakes" seems to be hot this summer in my books.

Dallas' birthday was awesome, we went to stages and danced the night away, Jackie didn't come though which kinda made me sad, but i didn't want to be sad on Dallas' birthday. she didn't roll in till 9 this morning, what a party animal.

Scotts brush with death.....well near almost kinda death, it made me realize that anyday, anyone of our lives could end ...LIKE THAT. Think about it, what are the last words you said to your parents, your friends, your girl/boyfriend, your sister. I am going to try and make everyone know how impotant they are to me, and if your my friend or Family Your IMPORTENT.

i am still working on the HOme Update, ahh this is gonna take a while.

Man i keep getting this really crazy feeling wash over me, like i have something i NEED to do or really want to do. my skin tightens and i almost feel anxious. Im not sure what its all about, but i think i will eventually find out. I am proud to say that the chest pains have stopped!....oh and my internet works again.

well goodnight all, i must get rest for tomorrow!

Dear anonymous

Go fuck yourselves, i really don't care what you think! I don't care what most people think. well i care what my friends think....but your some asshole FreaK

Oh and hey...you seem to be a little obsessed with posting on my site! I know your the same person! Creating new and fancy names hoping to trick me. OK fuck off.... Please stop wasting your time! Obviously i am a psycho and i need to come back to reality. NO SERIOUSLY .....FUCK OFF

Dear Anonymous

If you think my page sucks so much then nobody would visit it right! So wouldn't your comment be totally irrelevant, but if it helps you sleep at night, to know that you put someone down today, by all means ....Go ahead

home is always where the heart is!

I have been home for a week and a day, its been nice here, get to sleep in till 12 almost everyday, unless my mom wakes me up (hahahahaha ahhh that sounds so funny)

I got together with a long tim friend that i haven't seen in abotu 2 years. Jessica and me went to see wedding crashers together. That was a great movie! We had a long chat which was really good. I didn't realize how much i missed her. When jess and me were in grade 4,5, and 6 we would play together all the time until the "mean girls" broke our friendship.

i have so much more to talk about but i don't have the time to write it all down

i have a few topics i also need to discuss.

but till then hold tight and ill get crackin' with the updates!