have you ever had the life sucked out of you

Did i mention that i truck ran me off the road on my way home? Well it did and it was the scariest thing, although it surprised me, at the time i was calm as ever. i eventually got back on the highway, the thing that pissed me off the most was that i honked at the truck and he still didn't notice me. Some big asshole was trying to race everyone too and would dodge in and out of traffic, he mouthed the words "FUCK YOU" when i wouldn't let him in the fast lane. I thought that was very immature, i could see his wife was not please with the way he was acting because he kept slowing back down, then when he thought she was asleep he'd speed'er up again.

Home:

So the Firefighters dance was ok, but afterwards it was a bust. I was excited to go back to Joe and Eliza's house and drink some more, but they were all so trashed that one by one they all passed out.

Went to fitzy's southside with Matt, Sarah and Jess, had a few drinks there, then we went to Dooley's.....i hate that place cause me and matt got kicked out for not being of age during the middle of the day. ohh its sounds retarded but well it just pissed me off because the age thing doesn't come into effect till 8pm or soo. They were just being jerks...Anyway we played pool there and had more drinks, i started off sucking like crap but then got back into the groove when i had a few more drinks in me. I won a drink cause matt didn't think i could make a shot. I was proud of that. After Dooley's we went to the Georgian Downs, Jessica wanted to gamble. She only hit the bet button 4 times and she won $31. i told her to cash out while she was ahead, so she did. To much money is wasted on gambling. Its really funny i was walking around, matt had given me one quarter to play and i thought maybe i could find that special machine. Well i didn't find a special one, but i had put the quarter in and pulled the thingy.....Nothing, as i was walking away i heard soemone say "YOu want some more?". I turned around to see this old creepy man looking at me. I kinda pretended i didn't hear him and walk/ran away.

we eventually left the Casino, i blew a whopping $6 haha i don't like to take risks in those places. All around i had a fun night and found out matt wanted to try his moves on me ....well to bad i have a boyfriend now ;).

I got an awesome new cell phone, well its not really new, its a V300, a serious upgrade from what i had before, now i can actually talk on it without the battery going dead and the camera feature is so nifty. I take pictures of everything now!

Today i went to the good Ol' Doctor, got a check up and some more perscriptions (jesus i wish i didn't need any medication). I am trying to make my self get a new doctor but its sooooo much effort. and i like the one i have, i just have to drive 3hours now to get to him.

Man that reminds me, i am going blind again, i have horrid eye site and i have been putting off the eye check up just cause i hate them, the doctor always uses this weird air gun and blows air into my eye....Its the worst feeling ever and i always have build ups were my eyes start to tear and i can't keep them open before he pulls the trigger.

I am so happy that the TB ordeal is over with, its been about six months but i seem to continue to be reminded of it, not sure why, maybe because it sucked alot!

I was wonder how i am going to die, not that i want to right now, but i am just really curious ( i know curiousity Killed that cat, but thats not gonna stop me) hummm will it be the Big C (cancer) ewww i hope not, its so ravaging. I wouldn't mind being eatin by a shark. I think that would be a cool way to die, then my kids would have a story to tell their kids (thats if i have any).

i am hoping i can do one more outing tonight with my chums from home before i head back up to kingston! I need a nap so i can get charged up!

later