It happend so fast

Tomorrow is the Big day! PArty onn, i hope nothing goes wrong, i was thinking about a keg, but i am not sure if that will fly.

Im having a bit of a time adjusting to this "new" feeling. im really feeling good about the housemates right now, they make me feel happy about everything and they are always there for me. I don't think i have ever been so close to anyone in my life...well except my sisters and mom.

I have come to the conclusion that i seem to get used alot, not mentioning any names but i am sure you can come to your own conclusions, i feel like i did a lot of really nice things for this person, we never had a relationship, but were good friends. Then i was just dumped off like an old shoe. Something that has been replaced. I admit i am hurt by this, but i will learn from it, im gonna be strong. I am sure there are other things i should be learning to, but "mistakes" seems to be hot this summer in my books.

Dallas' birthday was awesome, we went to stages and danced the night away, Jackie didn't come though which kinda made me sad, but i didn't want to be sad on Dallas' birthday. she didn't roll in till 9 this morning, what a party animal.

Scotts brush with death.....well near almost kinda death, it made me realize that anyday, anyone of our lives could end ...LIKE THAT. Think about it, what are the last words you said to your parents, your friends, your girl/boyfriend, your sister. I am going to try and make everyone know how impotant they are to me, and if your my friend or Family Your IMPORTENT.

i am still working on the HOme Update, ahh this is gonna take a while.

Man i keep getting this really crazy feeling wash over me, like i have something i NEED to do or really want to do. my skin tightens and i almost feel anxious. Im not sure what its all about, but i think i will eventually find out. I am proud to say that the chest pains have stopped!....oh and my internet works again.

well goodnight all, i must get rest for tomorrow!