I was watching Kelly today in class. She sits there trying to be sooo smart and pretend like she has the attention span for this snooze of a class, but I know she will eventually break down and find something else to keep her from falling a sleep......I wait ......Glancing back at her every so often, trying not to make it obvious.....Finally the time comes about 2 hours into class. She is fiddling with her white-out thingy, totally focused on it too. She has no idea what the teacher is saying anymore. She has entered her own world and forgotten about trying to be what she wants other people to see her as.
I think its all about being self conscious. People who care to much about what other people think bug the hell out of me. Not because "they" are followers but because you can't enjoy your life if your always trying to be what other people want you to be! ..................*flashback* ..................When I was in elementary school, I was always trying to fit in, when back to school shopping came around, I always wanted the trendy clothes so I would fit in ( not that I got them lol) why did I feel the strong need to fit in? I realized no matter how hard I tried, I still got made fun of for being short, having glasses and so on and so on. When I got to highschool, I tried the same thing again, but this time, I did fit in and I still didn't like it at all. I don't want to follow a crowd! I just wanna do whatever I feel like doing. Wear what I like and think my own thoughts.................... so if anyone finds them self unhappy ask yourself these questions:
- If noone else had told me to do what I am doing right now, would I still be doing it?
- do I dress to impress even when I feel like going out in my joggers and a baggy top?
- Do I feel like everyone is watching me?
- do I follow the trends even if I don't like them?
well that was random ranting for today.
back to school
1 comment:
This goes right back to that great conversation .. "be the tree".
A tree doesn't try to fit in with it's friends either!
:P
My highschool class was weird .. definately not the norm. There were so many of us that crossed the barriers between the "cliks" that we eventually became one big group of friends. This is a very very rare thing in a highschool ... Now, I know that not everyone in my graduating class was all friends ... but still the majority was. I'd say like 80%.
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