morning light makes me think of you

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

I am standing in my patients room, i looks out to see the sky lite up with glowing red. Its the most beautiful thing, and i want to see it with you

an early rise today, the cat kept scratching at me. Well i guess its a good thing!

Mom and dad are now sitting in the intensly bright sun in a Aruba. I am so jealous of them, i hope when i am older and married i can take trips to aruba or some exotic place.

my birthdays in 18 days, its so close i can feel it yet at the same time i don't want it to come. i love Birthdays, but it seems that i get a slight feeling of sadness on those days, just cause i know it won' last very long, and the next morning when i open my eyes i have nothing to look forward to. Althougt it seems now a days i wake up and i can only think of one person and always wanting to see them. I never thought i could spend every waking moment with someone and still that not be enough. The one good thing about being away from him is i can have that time to miss him and think about how lucky i am. And that what i look forward to

CLASS IN 40 minutes

i am think maybe i should get dressed, what to wear ...its halloween!

done and done...oh i look like a catholic school girl ya


what i am listening to: Someday you will be loved ~ Death Cab for Cutie
back l8ter

Everyone is different, no two people are the same..But we all make mistakes!

Just dropping by to say hi!

The Halloween party went well, lots of people came, but i wouldn't know cause i passed out again before 12. Uhthankyou

my costume rocked Pink Punker! The hair was sweet too Mohawk central (it kinda fell forward though)

anyway ill be back tomorrow, i am out Major tom!

I hear that goddamn clock ticking .....and i really wanna crush it, LIKE A BUG

Time seems to be winding down extra fast. I have 1 and a half Client profiles to do taday, then dinner with the Ex ..., i shouldn't refer to him as that. Lets call him friend # 2 hahahaha, no just Will. After dinner ....MORE PUMPKIN CARVING. Brian has a chance to redeem himself. and i can make another masterfull piece of work. GO LEAFS GO

i also have a Halloween party tomorrow night, the Kitchen is A MEss and a half. I have taken a stand not to clean it. Since its all drunk people mess anyway, Its also not healthy to make food in so thank god i am eating out tonight. SUNDAY is study day again it should be called Studay, i just love those days and the i get a whole new week. No more clinical YESSSSS

Anyway i should get back to work

The brown Bag theory

The Brown Bag Theory may be Far out there for some of you but this is what i have concluded from my experience with it.

Conclusion:

The Brown Bag is a very unlucky bag, it causes me much grief when i use it and it seems to break alot too. Now you may be think to yourself why not stop using it! Well the bag always seems good at the time but once i have all my stuff packed into...by the way its a big bag and it fits tons of stuff in it...its too late!

It gets stuck on everything possible
its causes frustration when carrying it (always slips off my shoulder)
the strap unbuckles time and time again
it is always in the middle of everything

tonight and today for example it did all these things, it kept getting stuck under the rollie chair and actually made me scream out loud when i was trying to get out of my car.

Anyway i think i might stop using the bag after today!

well back to the homework Boooo to that !

A little frustrated

I got my Flu shot yesterday :( i really didn't want it, but i sucked it up and Jen and I went and got them. Mine hurt like a bitch and my arm is still tender today. I hate needles so much. They make my skin crawl.

Last night i went out for pizza @ philthy's with Brian ...I love their free pizza its so AWESOME!
I ate so much food last night and the strange thing ...I was still hungry as ever. I could have ate the second pizza no problem LOL.

Well i got a good start today woke up early on my day off and clean my downstairs area including laundry room. Did 2 load of laundry so far and am still planning to do a 3rd. and no i am preparing to go to the hospital for the last time this semester. On friday i will no longer be on Connell 9 ~ General Surgery, I will be in the community (clinics) and i won't have to wake up @ 5:30 am.
So long for now, ill be back in a couple of hours!

A giant pink bunny

Pink bunny story

The most lovely smile is the one that makes you cry when its not there!

I have finally found that smile that makes me happy all the time. Its a happiness that i never thought i would find ...But because i stopped looking, i found it. And its as perfect as it could ever be.

This reminds me of my ring:

I lost it a while back and i couldn't remember the last time i had it on. I was a bit upset about it, but i realized that i never seem to find anything when i am looking for it ...So i forgot about it. One day i saw my cat crawl out from under my bed and i wondered where he slept under there. If he had a little spot that was comfortable or something he would curl up on. I grabbed a flash light to check it out and the first thing the light shone upon was my ring. It was really strange! It was just sitting there all alone, nothing around it. It brought on an extreme feeling of contentment. This made me think that some things are just meant to happen and they will always find away to happen even if they seem impossible at the moment.

The Ring story is a perfect description of the events that have recently taken place in my life.

A man who knows what women WANT!

For anyone who is feeling stressed or anxious or even just raged out of their mind i recommend you Grab a copy of Leonard Cohen - Im Your man! or in that case anything by him.

One of the most relaxing singers i have ever heard!

I am listening to his greatest hits right now. Suzanne is a great song to start off with, it will give you a little feel of whats to come.

Never go to bulk barn, its bad news!

Its freezing in here..I can fix that

*empties de-humidifier*

last night I ingested way to much crap food

1. 2 double cheese burgers and fries from McDonald's
2. Sour gummie worms
3. Gummie Bears
4. Rose buds
5. Sour rootbeer gummies

My stomach actually did well though, it hurt for maybe ten minutes and then went away.

On Friday I went Bowling with Bri and Jay Z HIZO.....ahahahaha.

I did pretty well, by the second game i wasn't getting gutter balls anymore. I actually got a bunch of strikes and spares. Jason was wicked, he got so many strikes i lost count.... alot of turkeys! Bri was pretty good too, but way better at cooking. He made leek soup.... umm delish.

We went to the bulk barn yesterday for SOMETHING specific and came out with a Kilo of candy and not what we went in for! (we kinda forgot) I got red pistashios but man did they suck not even the least bit salty. I feel like going there and demanding $4.44 Back. What do they think, that they can pull the wool over my eyes, they probably made more money off that! passing unsalted nuts off for salted ones!

Currently listening to: Skincarver ~ Danzig a little heavy, but i am enjoying it at the moment!

Computer needs to be reformatted and i think that future shop may have ripped me off. When i bought my computer . They said i had a DVD burner and as it turns out i may not! So guess who else is gonna get a visit!

From all the pumpkin carving i got an infection in my thumb. It was soo painful yesterday i could actually feel my heart beating in it, but its all healed now :)

well i think i am going to go have bath now. Umm um!

Hope everyones weekends were great

As of saturday i am that much closer to $100,000,000

PRESENTING...The pumpkins

so heres how it works...the group picture is all the pumpkins we carved last night. Each of us thought our own pumpkin was the Best so you have to help us and vote for your favorite! Their names are
1.TML - Toronto maple leafs
2.Spider Web
3.the Witch
4.ummmmm BAT

number 4. Was supposed to be Strong Bad but Bri punched his face in and ended up making a bat. He blames me for the destruction of strong bad...I was just try to fix it a swear!
Brian says "I will be re-doing mine...For obvious reasons" the rest of the identities to the pumpkins will not be revealed due to....Well I think you know!

Good effort everyone! *two large thumbs up*

All and all the pumpkins carving went well. Pumpkin seeds were even made and I am eating them as I speak! SOOOO good

I am not going to fix it

just so everyone can get a good laugh at my spelling errors! I realized that its not pretty and if you really want me to fix it here you go ...BOWL..... It was a bowl of pasta!

:P your all super mean LOL

Kori kori kori my sweater is a sweater don't worry about it (I eventually would like it back but no rush)....Although I would like to see you some time soon. You know your always welcome to stop by my house after class, I do live about 20 seconds off the beeton path. And that goes for anyone, my house has a spinny door so visitors are always welcome! 12 foster street

I cleaned the fridge this morning. You know what?... It was actually strange, I was sleeping and all I could think of was the fridge and how messy it was and how badly I wanted to clean it up. Is that being obsessive? Anyway I cleaned it and took about half the food that was in it OUT. No body will take out their own rotting food. Its kinda gross. I can't believe I woke for the soul purpose of cleaning the fridge!

And a week or two ago Laura came across some shriveled potatoes in a drawer, instead of doing anything about it, she just wrote a note to the house that there were potatoes that needed to be tossed ......Bitch you have hands, fuckin use 'em! (oh that felt so good to say!)

LAtely she has been getting on my nerves! Its not that she really does anything, but its the fact that she goes out of her way to avoid me. Like I was the Norwalk or something. To tell you the truth I think Lindsay is even more pissed about this then I am! She is pissed that Laura really has no reason to not like me but she still does anyway. I am sure there are some underlying reason....*cough jealous * excuse me!

*One situation*

Jackie was going to drive Laura, Mike, Bedford and Dallas downtown, but around the same time I wanted to go do banking so I offered to take them off Jackie's hands. Right when I said this Lindsay said "I bet she won't come now cause your driving!" I agreed with her, but she really had only 2 choices ..1. Come with me 2. Don't come and get left behind ...So obviously she would pick 1. BUT instead she added a 3. I didn't give her permission to add a 3. Come but let everyone get in the car first and wait 10 minutes for her slow ass. Then after honking several times finally make her fine exist out the door.



AND I ALMOST FORGOT

PARTY @ MY HOUSE OCTOBER 29, 2005

Its A HALLOWEEN PARTY AND EVERYONE IS INVITED ~ please dress to impress (costumes)

*I am think out loud at the moment*

what I'm listening to: Guns'n'roses ~ November Rain

my birthday is inching up quite fast, sooner then you know it all be 20 ..The big two OH

I think I am just gonna make a nice dinner for me and someone else ;) enjoy my new found maturity! But mark my words I will never ever be a fully mature person. My youthful/never serious/joking personality is what I really do love about myself. Its A shame not to be able to enjoy life! humm well I think that's it for today.

tomorrow will be pumpkin carving REVIEW .Hope it goes well! Pictures of all the fab pumpkins will be posted!

A new post for a new day

I have been neglecting my blog lately, maybe because i am busy or maybe because i am busy, either way i decided to take some time out of my busy life .....HA....to update the bastard!

The sickness has passed. I feel Great, i am eating again, my appetite is back with a vengeance. It seems that ever since Friday I have been wanting food more then ever. Like 30 minutes ago I made a bowel of pasta and that was at 12:20am.

so now I am thinking about tomorrow. I am freakin excited about the pumkin carving and lost too. Bri is gonna join the festivities and hopefully drag Jason too. Freamo and Miranda and Dallas to man our kitchen is going to be splattered with pumkin guts :D

I put Christmas lights in the kitchen and they look sooo cool. They are behind the rather large collection of bottles above our cabinets.

ANOTHER POINT FOR HILLARY


well i am too tired to write anymore but ill come back tomorrow

The journey of my sickness

So I think its day three of having this crazy "enteritis" eating has been out of the question for me lately, you now just white bread and gatorade. Its been leaving me kinda lethargic , no sorry really lethargic! I went to do research today and I talked to the head nurse. She told me to go home and eat something and see how I feel...So I went home and made chicken noodle soup. I eat half the bowel and was stuffed (like I had just eaten the thanksgiving dinner from Sunday, although I think I felt even more stuffed with the soup) so food was crossed off the list.

I laid on the couch watching TV and trying to find a comfortable position so I wasn't dying of pain (2 thumbs down) watched survivor and CSI (it was good tonight...Like always) then I decided after seeing so many food commercials, that I needed something to eat. POTATOES!

I boiled some potatoes and mashed them real good. I was soooooo excited for them.

I wolfed down as much as I could bear and had a couple glasses of water to follow. Then I got this strange feeling. I was in Miranda's room reading some instructions to some medication and I felt dizzy ...Really dizzy, then it hit me, I had energy! I freaked right out and got super excited. I even felt semi ok. So I sat and chatted with the girls as they were getting ready to go out.

They left and I was now heading to my room. I close the door behind me put on some PJ's and it hits me. Nausea full on. I dash to the bathroom making it in the nick of time. This is my first day of vomiting and surprisingly it made me feel a lot better.

bye bye potatoes

now I will try to sleep ...heres to some success!

i know what it is now

i have viral gostroenteritis, how i got it? i am not sure, but i can tell you one thing IT BLOWS
so am down for the count, still not eating anything. waiting for bread and gatoraid. :(
back to bed i go

SOB SOB SOB!

pains progressively get worse and more frequent ...some one please kill me! how will i go to clinical tomorrow if i am running to the bathroom every 5 minutes and the only way it stops is if i don't eat! and that leads to hunger and lethargy, jesus fuckin christ! sob sob sob and thats my story.

thats it i am gonna see if i can make it to the stupid health centre

wish me luck

I am still in pain

my stomach is relentless, its now been over 24 hours since it stared hurting and i feel just as crappy as i did yesterday morning when i woke up. Any food seems to be doing it now. Solution - don't eat anything!

So the leafs won last night! I didn't get to watch the game because we couldn't find what channel it was on (Jason says it wasn't on at all which is total bullshit), but we did end up watching the Gilmore Girls...Oh man the funniest shit ever ;)

right now iam waiting for lindsay to call me so i can go and pick her up. i hate waiting! i think she got someone else to pick her up thank god, i don't think i could if i really wanted to!

i am getting hate mail from my sister hehehe. she would now like me to refer to bones as "my sisters cat"

anyway thats enough for today i feel like shit
i am gonna lay down

theres a chill in the air

I hope everyone had a happy thanksgiving!

Mine was pretty good, Mom made a perfect turkey as per usual. the bread stuffing rocked and so did the mashed potatos ( i made those hehe). Nanny and Grandpa came up too! I was shocked when i saw grandpa, he had a cast on and sounded horrible. can you believe this: he has a cast on his right foot and he drove from Barrie to my house (a half hour drive). Some times i think my grandpa is to much of a thrill seeker!

Wedding dress shopping with VV, Sab and Mom was pretty fun. Its been a while since i spent time with all of them together. Veronica had some succese, now she didn't pick a dress, but she did find a special few that she really liked. I could tell she was torn between two of them. It must be such a hard desicion for her ( but i think she should make it on her own because its her dress for her special day)

I brought my cat back home to kingston with me, he seems to be adapting well. I think he likes all the people in the house. I have been debating about letting him outside or making him an indoor cat.

Pros & Cons of being an indoor cat
he won't get hurt he likes to go outside
he'll stay clean litter box will be changed alot
he won't get hit by a car trying to keep him inside is tricky
no fleas either

I woke up at 5:30am to my stomach feeling the worst its ever felt. this lasted for about an hour then i had this stronge urge to vomit so i ran upstairs and sat by the toilet talking to jackie. After that passed the stomach pains came back and they felt just as bad. i ended up missing class this morning and instead i got to dash back and forth to the bathroom (to tell you the truth i would have rather been in class) So in conclusion i have not had a good nights rest PERIOD! i think i got about 3 hours of decent sleep and the nausea is an off/on thing!

Oh and did i tell you i am going to win a $10,000 shopping spree. I am going about it a different way now..instead if thinking i won't win (and i never do) i will now think that i will! and hopefully on the first of November i will be able to tell you guys that i won A sweet shopping spree:)

iam gonna go lay in my bed and see if i can get some rest now, so much for looking for a job today, I look and feel awful :(

hopefully tomorrow will be a good day and by friday it will be great....LEts hit the road to Perrysound HOTTUB and sauna here i come!

i am down for the count!

FRIG IS THE ONLY THING I CAN SAY

i have become really frustrated within the last half hour, i made a small mistake that turned into a big one and now i am upset because i feel like i am being fucked over.

anyway i have a test tomorrow i need sleep cause i got to be up for 5:30. i am also driving home too. I have two people coming with me so that should really help me pay for the gas there and back.
ill update later during the weekend, when i actually feel like talking about soemthing other then the fact that i am angry. gerrrrrr

sleep tight

p.s. don't ever do stop listening to your friends

A split headache and some free apple stuff

Today my mom called me to let me know that she talked to one of the guys at apple and he is sending me a wall charger for my ipod plus i am also allowed to pick $150 worth of accesories off the apple web site for my brand new Ipod. now tell me if thats not a deal. All thanks to my mom and her very good skills with people......i think i owe her a little surpise;)

Went to the doctor today and had to get a second physical, ugg, but thank god thats over with. Last night was pretty fun. Bri came over around 7 and we watched more LOST and stuffed our faces with snacks. Mike, Laura, Dallas and Lindsay decided to drink. Mike was drinking a Large bottle of wine. Mike + any type of alcohol = Really bad turnout.

So he was set on driving home after he had drank a whole bottle, but i would have none of that in my house. I wrestled him to the ground in the middle of the road, and after about 5 minutes of pain i fianlly got the keys from him and hide them in my room. Good deed done for the day! After Laura and Mike went out to the Bars, me and Lindsay sat at in the Kitchen and had a nice chat. after that i went to bed.... and then was woken at 230 by Mike wanting his keys back. Again ...NO DEAL MAGARNIGAL! So i wrestled with him some more to try and calm him down....HE kept me up till 530 this morning. So i think thats why my head hurts like crazy.

So now that i have my Nano, i am happy once again and i am back on my feet running around kingston.

I have watched about 15 lost eposoieds ...totally addicted still.
lost is on tonight and so is first HOckey GAme yesss

off to do shit

I am Addicted to Lost!

Thanks to Brian i am now wasting time ...watching Lost (its a good waste of time though)

Loud Noises BBQ went very well, didn't win at Bierut or anything for that matter, but i still had a rockin time. The food was excellent! my compliments to anyone who cooked...Matt the burgers were tasty indeed, i can honestly say that i don't think i have ever had a better burger, and the salad (a group effort) was great too. I really liked the pepper in it (i never thought to putting pepper in salads till now).

Ryan(*red polo shirt)
trusty Jell-O shooter supplier, A big thanks Goes Out to HIm!!!! even when "others" told him to stop bringing them to me!
I got the Nano, YESSSSS, i traded my mini to get it. I almost feel like i betrayed the Mini :( but man the nano is so small, how could i resist?

well i should get to sleep, got a test tomorrow!

Night All

UPDATE!!!!!

I perfected the chicken Parmishan sub and realized that its not my fault ....the chicken sucks!