lets see how many times i can hurt myself!

Pain rated on scale from 0 - 10 3 hour time period

1. walk in the door, go downstairs, on the way back up i hit my hip on the door knob (5)
   
2. really strange but i hit my hand on something invisible jutting out of my door frame (3)
   
3. Cut finger with butter knife (2)
   
4. Dresser Stress! (7)
   

Thats all i can think of right now ...just wait till tomorrow

I had a fight with my dresser!

My neck is killing me tonight!

Yes i got in a fight with my dresser, I kicked it and yelled at it "you fucking drawer CLOSE goddamn you" then i hit it some more! Its a piece of crap and this one drawer won't close because its kinda slanted, but it makes all the rest of the drawers get stuck to. I need a less used one! Maybe ill hit up the thrift House and see what i can find.

Miranda found alot of mould under her bed today so we are getting all the carpets steam cleaned YESSSSS. Its gonna make this place smell so much better.

I cut myslef with a butter knife this time while doing the dishes. I hate dishes soooo much.

here is my rant for today: Laura got her new computer, it came in alot of boxes and she just threw them all outside so the rain could get them all soaked, it makes our house look so trashy. I cleaned up outside today and put everything in that shed behind our house. Now its filled with beer bottles, wet boxes, tables and chairs. I was tempted to take the bottles back, but last time i did that Jackie yelled at me and told me they were all hers. I had to give her some of the money even though they had been sitting outside for over a month and i had to clean them all out and put them in blue boxes to get them to the beer store. Alot of effort on my part not rewarded in any way!

Now i just got in shit for throwing Dallas' nasty slippers in the garbage. they had been outside for a month and had gotten wet then dried and infested and dried and wet and eww they were gross! I can't win here, Never


What i am listening to right now: The Police And The Private - Metric (smashing song, its sooo good)

Went out to Mybar last night, i got pretty intoxicated. It was packed with people. GD people, man i don't know why i get so pissed but the GD people really know how to piss me off! they make Mybar their bar and everything is about GD and the fuckin GD Clan. Jesus why do they have to be like that?

Hungout with Bri today, i got the Chicken Parmishan Sub and it was really good, the only thing i think i would change is that it be a little warmer and have some salt on it. Ummmm salt!

What my sub contained:

• Breaded chicken
• Lettuce
• Tomatos
• Mayo (lots too)
• cheese (not so much)
• marinara sauce
  
• parmishan cheese
  

i think thats all. Oh man i am soo hungry for one again!

then for a tasty snack Brian wipped out the onion dip and scoops. It was tasty, but i didn't have much cause the lactose Factor...and the onion (don't get me wrong i love onion in dip form, but it hates my stomach ..no matter how much i love it)

Stomach status: grim!

Remove the remote from your pocket and look up at what your missing!

I am standing at the edge of a cliff, feeling everything I am. Smelling all that exists around me. For 2 Decades I have been on this earth, but if you were to ask me if I could remember all of that I would look you in straight in the eyes and say "HELL NO"

So about today, I have been going to bed a lot earlier then I normally do, I feel a lot more rested now. I guess that's what I have been doing wrong (not going to bed early) I was in a really good mood this morning, class was boring, but we had some lady come in to talk about sexual assault! I slept through most of it. Man she wouldn't stop talking.

Lindsay just walked into my room, she died some of her hair purple, some of it black and some blonde, I am not sure what to think of it! It smells good though, like flowers or something.

Ohhh after class I came back here and put some buttons on some pants. Watched the Gilmore Girls from last week. It was really shocking about how they are going about the plot for this season, but I like it.

Brian got me hooked on Lost, I have been attempting to Download last season, but I am having no luck so far!

Listening to: Marching Bands Of Manhattan - Death Cab For Cutie

I have a dentist appointment tomorrow, slightly nervous. Not sure how it will work out!

I am going home next weekend to see the family, I am gonna miss everyone from K-Town. I really don't like leaving here, its home to me now. Somedays I feel like I should leave, like yesterday, but then I think about it more. I really would like to travel, but I think my life right now is up in the air, what ever happens will effect the way it falls. In the back of my mind I want someone to make me wanna stay here, or take me away somewhere new and different.

DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE

I Will Follow You Into The Dark

Love of mine
some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark
No blinding light
or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
In Catholic school
as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied
by a lady in black
And I held my toungue
as she told me "Son
fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside
you When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
You and me
have seen everything to see
From Bangcock to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes
are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

I recommend everyone have a listen to this song! tell me what you think of it

Shake your Head, its empty!

Ohhh thank-you, I will be attending the "LOUD NOISES" Charity Barbecue, sounds like a plan!
what time does it start?
Oh and its crazy that you would post a comment tonight of all nights cause guess who showed up at my door step....None other then two hot Cops saying that we had our music to loud (our gay neighbors called it in I assume)! I love Loud noises! Rocking out to Metric still!

Empty - Metric is one Sweet-ass song!

I wish I knew where I was so long ago

I ran to my usual swinging spot today, I ran in the rain. It was really cold, but for the first time ever this cold seemed to be comforting to me. I swung below all these pebbles and I had to fight the urge to fall face first into them, each round wet pebble resting against my arms and legs. I could feel my thoughts start to slow down and eventually come to a halt. I am stepping back from everything that is me, was me and will ever be me! I am nothing at the present moment, making no difference in anyone's lives. I will be one of those pebbles that moves back and forth beneath my feet, that feels no pain and has nothing to lose. I want to be the pebble sooo badly, sadly I will never be this one small pebble. I will continue to exist in this world of never ending hurt and pain.

Note to self: eat something

Anger has many ways of showing it self. I say what I feel at the present moment, which does not mean I will always feel this way. Maybe one day it will change, who knows. For now I am learning more about myself and how easy it is to get hurt.

On a more up-lifting note I got Metric's new CD Live It Out! I am enjoying it right now, good listening material. For all the rest of you the album won't be available till tomorrow HA!

"It's all just the idea of 'don't freak out.........Anything that happens to you is just your life getting lived. Sometimes it feels like we're afraid of events and action of any kind. But if you can get a little distance from it, it becomes an incredible adventure no matter how things turn out."

- Metric's Emily Haines (vocals/synths)



I have a test next Monday, that sounds like a lot of fun wooooow!

out for now!

Aberdeen is Dead!

Well home coming rocked the roof off my house.......ok that was gay, but it still kicked some serious ass.

I got off work and went to the LCBO to pick up some vodka, then headed over to Bri's to start the night. We drank and went to philthy's for some free pizza. This waitress we had was actually hitting on me. It was kinda odd to tell you the truth. She had brought Brian a picture of beer when had asked for a pint, but she wouldn't take it away. she was totally on crack or something

After dinner we walked to matts and then headed for METRIC. I had been so stoked for this concert, that i seriously thought i was gonna die of over-excitedness. We walked through aberdeen st. That place was crazy happenin' Some car blew up, not when i was there, but still these crazy queens people blew up a car...."where are your heads now, Crazy Queens people, i really thought you were smarter then that?" anyway, so metric was amazing live, i can't wait to get their new album.

today i moved my room around and it looks so much better, and there is more room for me to stretch out. I missed the family guy tonight, cause i was out voted by my house mates. Desperate House Wives is what graced or Television screen, oh ya and i just found out that the cable jacks in our house don't work. I think Marky Mark is gonna get a little phone call tomorrow. whats creepy is that Lindsay, Dallas and Laura keep talling me that they run into him at the bar. i though he was old and married MEH

i am gonna go to bed early tonight, in about 10 minutes.

Off to start another long week

What hell comes from the BOOK STORE?

So i have another story to tell about My beloved VISA card, but for reasons i am unable to disclose, i will tell you tomorrow. hahaha

Tired and yanwing, i am excited to make fun of the Queen's Students tomorrow. I plan to drink coffee while doing it soo i think i may be pretty wired by the end of the day! That will be fun, i love being spazy!

What else have i done today, ahh i dropped another resume off at Jacob; they need a stock person. And i am going to drop off one at Denny's again because they are also looking and the guy that i talked to really wanted me to bring in a resume YEAH!

Good news in that department.

Just went to do my research so now i think ill be doing HW for the rest of the night well until i am ready to go to bed.

I am way to judgmental sometimes!

I see people and sometimes I just wonder why they are like they are! I am sure people do the same to me. I wonder why I have this habit.

I was watching Kelly today in class. She sits there trying to be sooo smart and pretend like she has the attention span for this snooze of a class, but I know she will eventually break down and find something else to keep her from falling a sleep......I wait ......Glancing back at her every so often, trying not to make it obvious.....Finally the time comes about 2 hours into class. She is fiddling with her white-out thingy, totally focused on it too. She has no idea what the teacher is saying anymore. She has entered her own world and forgotten about trying to be what she wants other people to see her as.

I think its all about being self conscious. People who care to much about what other people think bug the hell out of me. Not because "they" are followers but because you can't enjoy your life if your always trying to be what other people want you to be! ..................*flashback* ..................When I was in elementary school, I was always trying to fit in, when back to school shopping came around, I always wanted the trendy clothes so I would fit in ( not that I got them lol) why did I feel the strong need to fit in? I realized no matter how hard I tried, I still got made fun of for being short, having glasses and so on and so on. When I got to highschool, I tried the same thing again, but this time, I did fit in and I still didn't like it at all. I don't want to follow a crowd! I just wanna do whatever I feel like doing. Wear what I like and think my own thoughts.................... so if anyone finds them self unhappy ask yourself these questions:

1. If noone else had told me to do what I am doing right now, would I still be doing it?
2. do I dress to impress even when I feel like going out in my joggers and a baggy top?
3. Do I feel like everyone is watching me?
   
4. do I follow the trends even if I don't like them?

if you answer to more then 1 then you might want to rethink who has control of your life, you? Or everyone else, but you?
well that was random ranting for today.

back to school

Goddamn It! My thumb hurts like hell right now!

its not a love that will fade though, its one of those total side swipes, that knocks you off your feet and fills your mind with only thoughts of him and how amazing he is LOVE

you would have those moments where you felt like you should kiss eachother, but you don't because your not completely sure of what he thinks of you.

Fuck love, its only a word, losing all meaning as the days grow older, darker, deeper.

These are some of the different aspects of love I've had over the last couple years . Some are positive and some aren't so much. But I don't think love is always positive, that's what makes love so special. Its Hard to come by and its not easy as pie. If only it was easy as pie, umm and pie is so good too!

I have found my relationship personality in this song

Jack Johnson - Sitting, Waiting, Wishing ~ In between Dreams

Well I was sitting, waiting, wishing

You believed in superstitions

Then maybe you'd see the signs



The Lord knows that this world is cruel

I ain't the Lord, no I'm just a fool

Learning lovin' somebody don't make them love you



Must I always be waiting, waiting on you

Must I always be playing, playing your fool



I sang your songs, I danced your dance

I gave your friends all a chance

But putting up with them

Wasn't worth never having you



Maybe you've been through this before

But it's my first time so please ignore

The next few lines cause they're directed at you



I can't always be waiting, waiting on you

I can't always be playing, playing your fool



I keep playing your part

But it's not my scene

Want this plot to twist

I've had enough mystery

Keep building it up

Then you shooting me down

But I'm already down



Just wait a minute

Just sitting, waiting

Just wait a minute

Just sitting, waiting



Well, if I was in your position

I'd put down all my ammunition

I'd wonder why'd it taken me so long



But the Lord knows that I'm not you

And if I was, I wouldn't be so cruel

Cause waitin' on love ain't so easy to do



Must I always be waiting, waiting on you

Must I always be playing, playing your fool



No, I can't I always be waiting, waiting on you

I can't always be playing, playing your fool

I don't think i will ever not wait though, thats just me. I think something will eventually come around, so i keep waiting.

Goodnight and sleep like a LOG

damn dishes

i just cut my finger on a knife. Its kinda deep and kinda painful!

Damn Knife!

Yet another cold/flu/fever or what have you!

What I am listening to at the moment: Design - Fiction Company

I was thinking this morning about the flu shot that we are forced to get for being in the nursing program. Now you tell me if this makes any sense!

Why should I get the flu shot? When I do get it I feel instantly sick and pass out, and even after the fact of getting the shot I still get sick (with every possible sickness there is). This year I am going to protest in the compulsory needle poking! No one can jab my arm unless they have a good reason!
Speaking of such sicknesses, well what do you know it has rolled in at just the appropriate time. Now I am sitting here with totally blocked sinuses and sound like a man! Damn man voice.

My mother has just called to update me on the iPod situation. She is getting nowhere just like I told her she would. "I want to throw your ipod off the roof and then drive over it with my car repeatedly" and I respond " now mom if you do that then we won't get any money back!" I think you people may begin to see where my temper originates from! If you think mine is bad just get on my mom's bad side OUCH is all I can say. Love you mom :)

thinking about class in an hour and sneezing all over my self. Sounds like a fun day to me!

Everything happens so quickly, do you believe in fate?

Last night Whit and I had planned to go to Philthy's and get some sweet free pizza and free drinks, wait for Shannon and Justin, then head to the Elixir, but that party train was brought to a dead halt when Whit's ID didn't pass the test. To me, Sarah and Whit look the same, but I guess that just shows how blind I really am. So we didn't make it into Philthy's. Which at the time was a bummer. We had no idea where to go and what to do.

Do to my quick and tactical thinking we got ourselves a 12 of Carling and decided to get drunk at my house. But as fate may intervene, we stopped at Matt's to see if there was a party goin' down, INDEED there was. We cracked the beer and enjoyed our night until Super Cop showed up and slapped matt in the ass with a hefty "Loud Noises" ticket. He obviously had something rather large shoved up his ass last night. There weren't even any noise complaints called in. He just decided that the music was to loud for his precious ears. What blows my mind is that the house one block up had their music much louder, as me and whit got to experience the earth shake as we walked by. Where was Super Cop then Huh?

also went out on Friday but I didn't have that much fun. I wasn't any bit close to drunk, so all the drunk people just seemed to piss me off and to top it off, I was boiling. I ended up leaving Philthy's @ 2 by my self. Got home and crawled into bed! That was pretty much that night wrapped up!

Thursday The rents came down to visit me on their way to Montreal. We went out to Philthy's for Grand Opening night with Scott, and got free pizza coupons and drinks. I had the perogies and they were so tasty ...Except for the onions! When we got home we had some of this really large mumble bumble pie (apple pie) and that's when my mother took my iPod out of my clutches. I small tear rolled down my check as I watched them back out of the drive way. When will I see you again iPod, WHENNNNNNNNNN???
Me and Scott spent the rest of the night watching the O.C. and The Season Finally of CSI: Crime Scene Investigation. It was SOHO amazing, it had me on the edge of me seat (2 hours of pure goodness) I can't believe I missed it the first time! I was up for 5:42 On Friday. So the alarm thing is really fucked up. I set it so that I would wake up @ 6 putting into the equation that it goes of 18 minutes late so it was set for 5:42.........Well you can guess that it didn't go off at 6 but instead 5:42. I hate this alarm clock, its either I get up early or I don't get up at all!

anyway back to bed

I thought nightmares were only for little kids!

LAst night I had a very restless sleep. I don't understand why, but lately I've been having nightmares! REALLY SCARY ONES!

I had this dream that I was walking around in a house and everywhere I went there were cobwebs. At the beginning of the dream the cobwebs and spiders were smaller and easy to move out of my way but as the dream continued they got bigger and stronger, and when I would turn around there would already be more cobwebs behind me. I started to freak out and run, but I kept running into them and I was getting stuck. I woke up and was in a total panic, I looked at my clock and I had only been asleep for about 20 minutes. It was 2:00am and I could hear foot steps upstairs. I am not sure if it was the foot steps or my extreme fear that woke me up, but after I woke up I was afraid to go back to sleep.

The Murderer

This dream I had maybe a month and a bit ago, and it was scary too. This man was going around Kingston killing girls that went to St.Lawrence and Queens. He would break into their room at night and torture them, then cut off their limbs and eventually kill them. Saying it now seems to creep me out even more!

No one really exsisits in your mind

This dream I had when I went to Delio's house for the Double Black weekend. There was a guy and he met this girl, he started to like her alot. So one day they went out and they were standing beside this dumpster thing and it opened up like it had a mouth and ate her. He could hear her screaming, so he ran to go get help and when he got back there was no trace of her or blood at all. When he went home he explained to one of his friends what had happened and his friend didn't understand who he was talking about. He started to notice that no one knew who she was. After that event, other girls he met started to disappear before his eyes. And anyone that knew them before thought he was crazy now. This dream doesn't sound as scary as the other ones, but it was. I heard a noise and woke up to Shawn talking to me. It was a relief that some one was there, or I probably would not have been able to go back to sleep!

On a lighter subject, I went to the gym again today at first I thought I would be in a lot of pain because my abs hurt from Monday, but after a couple minutes they were fine and I actually noticed that I could do why better then on Monday....ABS here I come. I also did a step/weight/Ball class right after the ab class. I felt good though really good.

1. 1. off to have a shower

Because often depression is an appropriate reaction.

Because I think depression has something to tell me.
Because often depression is an appropriate reaction.
Because I am terrified of changing the function of my brain in anyway.
Because I believe that depression is"me".
Because I can't imagine my life without the time off I get from periodic depression.

"The Camera My Mother Gave Me" - Susanna Kaysen

This morning I woke up spontaneously at 6:02. When I woke up I didn't feel tired like I usually do, I felt energetic! When I noticed how early it was I decided to lay down for a little while and just rest though, because I knew it was gonna be a long day. I eventually got up again and started to get ready for the Orientation (bullshit). It was strange though, at 6:18 my alarm went off. At that point I had occurred to me that my alarm had not gone off at 6 when it should have (that was the time I had set it for), I re-checked it to see if I had made a mistake, and to my surprise I hadn't! With the strangeness swishing around in my mind, I began my ever so long day!

Caught a bus at 7:15 with Doominator and Team Asia! Got to Grant Hall at 7:30 (why to early in my opinion), campus was already swarming with students. Right when we got off the bus I saw two squirrels going at it. It was a good thing to see in the morning because it lightened my mood. We waited outside Grant Hall for another 20 minutes, finally being coerced into single file, so that a teacher could hand out pointless pieces of paper as we entered the building.

By this time I already wanted to go home, but I had brought some reading materials to keep me occupied. Just think of what I did today as sitting in a doctors office for 5hours. I read an entire book in this time.....but that was also after I read The Musings of a Misunderstood Brown man ( this morning when I realized how bored I was going to be, I started searching on the web for some good reading material and I realized I had not read his site in quite a while, so I printed up what I could and took it with me) I enjoyed it too, I few chuckles here and there, no to loud thought...There was an orientation going on! The book was called "The Camera my Mother gave Me" by Susanna Kaysen. Very different book from what I am used to reading, but interesting none-the-less. ( I strongly don't recommend this book to males!!!!!!!!!!)

So finally after the orientation was finished, Doominator, Team Asia, Kelly and me headed to the Police Station to pick up our CPIC's. Mine wasn't ready yet...dammit JANET!

We finally took a bus home and I got ready to take my iPod to Future Shop. Jbird came along with me . Good Company and I haven't seen her in a while, but the bad thing is she is sick and I'll probably get it now.

I get to future shop and the lady informs me that I can only do warranty stuff through Apple.Godammit. So a trip to future shop wasted. I got back home and called Apple, ahhhh. So the same thing again as last time. I still had to pay $45 shipping, and I found that to be bullshit. Oh and get this, they sent me a box last time right and I asked the lady if I could use that box:

Conversation:

Me: I have a box from last time, I could just use that right!
Apple Bitch: No I am sorry that box is invalid and can not be used again.
Me: Why the hell not that makes no sense, now I am gonna have to wait for that goddamn man to bring another box when I could send it in this one right now!
Apple Bitch: The box won't work anymore...Its invalid!

......

Me: so if I send it to you they will check it and repair it..or replace it if it can't be fixed.
Apple Bitch: Yes, but if its a software problem we can't do anything about it cause you don't have that kind of technical support so ....
Me: so your telling me they won't fix it.
Apple Bitch: Yes! and they will send it back to you.
Me: and what about the money it cost to ship it to you?
Apple Bitch: You don't get that back.
Me: WHATTTTT....That's ridiculous! ........So how do I fix the software problem?
Apple Bitch: Troubleshooting on the net.

that's when I got really mad!

My iPod isn't even functional, how the hell am I gonna fix it!!!!!!!!

Conclusion...APPLE SUCKS BALLS

This is were my quote comes in from the beginning of my blog! I think feeling sad is a natural feeling that everyone has the right to feel at anytime they think it necessary! Its a way to cope with stress, anger, fear and helpless/hopelessness! Earlier I felt this sadness come over me. The iPod thing really got to me. It made me so frustrated that I couldn't take it, and then to add ontop, the beautiful, warm day I had to spend inside a stupid Hall in a cramped chair, doing absolutely nothing. Well there are also other factors that contribute to the sadness that arose in me today, like LoW and the fact that I can't stand her and the way she views material things and social standing as a form of Greatness and that everyone needs to know that she is doing something with these people all the time(I think that this is not the right way to live, this is only my opinion so don't go ripping at me, but I found last year I was always going to parties and never resting like I should have).

I have had to, in the past, find new people to hangout with because I felt that there was to much competition from her. When it comes to relationships with people, I'm not that competitive. If I feel a threat to my existing relationship I run in the opposite direction.

Although I think about all the people I know now and actually have come to thank her. If I had not started looking for new people to hangout with in Kingston, I would never have met, Matt, Adas, Scott, Tyler, Brian, Kori, Mike ect ect the list goes on. So many awesome people and it all came from me running away from dramatic competition. Now I am trying harder to not run away anymore, More face it then anything. Some of the relationships I have made recently, I find to be very amazing, and I would have a very hard time just dropping them. So I guess it is most appropriate to thank LoW for exposing me to all these new and amazing people

Tonight I thought of the best nickname for Dallas. This is the mad science behind it

Debbie Does Dallas (porn movie) (and Dallas' name) = Triple D = TripD also referring to breast size LOL oh man if she ever reads this she will kill me. She isn't really a triple D, only a double or could only even be a D, but the mistake could easily be made (I made it)!

anyway that's enough for now.

sleep well

One summer lost!

The summer was just so stange! I was driving down town today and houses liey empty, where summer memories were once lived. Now realizing how fast things change, and when you look back at where you spent it, it looks abandon. Its funny i just noticed it today, I remember when i used to hang out with Das and Scott at their place all the time! But now neither of them even live in the same house anymore. Das is gone to Ottawa, and from what i hear hes having a pretty good time. Scott lives way up bath now, he is still working at Kingston computer Planet , making tons of money!

wow that thought just abruptly stopped.

So i am sitting in on a saturday night, i am thinking this is the first time i have not gone out when there are tons of things going on. Lindsay and Laura are going to a kegger......not intrested in that. Shannon wanted me to go out to lonestar, but i knew that would cost money, which i don't have, so that was out of the story. And i was also remembering that i said something to kori about doing something tonight, but when i got home i was soo beat i didn't even feel like chillin with anyone.

Now that laura is living here its so different. The phone is ringing comstantly...and its never for me. I stopped wanting to picking up the phone! i used to love answering....................*fLashBacK*..................................I would answer the phone in really retarded voices over the summer. Sometimes speak in french or spanish ...just be a total dick, you know!
there are bags everywhere; her purses ...i don't know what you call them! And now i can hear squeaking above me all the time and it is so annoying.

This morning i was awoken at 930 by mike wanting me to move my car so he could leave, that was the first thing. SO i decided because i was up i would make something to eat and then go back to bed. Again at 11:30 TAP Tap tap tap TAP.....................TAP Tap tap tap TAP....................................Tap tap tap TAP...TAP Tap tap tap TAP. It was driving me nuts and it was coming from lauras room. I get up in a rage and storm up stairs to see that lauras dad was hanging more stuff on the walls, but he has also made a shoe shelf which was a big plus! By then i gave up and watched TV.. lumberjack compititions are so awsome.

Then i got to work and found out that the girl tat work there are dumbass's. LAst night as i was about to leave i asked them to check what time i was working at. Well they checked ( i though i was working at 3) but now i was working at 2 . So i came today at 2 ...what does vic say "your not supposed to be here for another hour". I was soooo pissed. But i got off an hour early.

I got home and well did nothing. I watched this old movie( i mean like way old, maybe 20 or 30 years ago) about this women who wanted to become a singer, and had tons of trouble with men! its was a pretty cool movie, i was glued to the TV.

Now i am ready to go to bed

Night Homies!

I wanna kick them all in the ass!

I just got home form work i have less then 10 hours before i have to work again and its 4:15 in the morning. I am so exhusted of dealing with drunk people, they just piss me off, ripping things, grabbing, yelling and almost having sex against the mcdonalds windows....i don't need to see that.

Lindsay never came and visited me either like she said she would. I have to work a 6 hour shift tomorrow too. I can't even go out anymore with my friends on the weekend. I also didn't even get my second 20 min break at work because we were so goddamn busy.

I went to use my visa today to buy a text book and i kept erroring, now i just paid the visa so i am wondering if it just hasn't updated yet, but i really needed that book and i don't know when my parents get home......need money for text books!!!!

I am just about to crawl into bed now. I have no idea when ill be able to catch up on my sleep or do my homework....i guess its either one or the other!

On a good note, i got someone addicted to McChicken sauce. I told this girl to squeeze a pack into her mouth so she did and loved it to death. Also i am loving my classes so far, i only have three classes and then placement the rest of the time. And unlike the traditional 8 hour shifts now its only 6 hours which is alot better.

off to wash the grease off my body...oh ya i caved today and got a quarter, but i am just going to not get the food as often!...like once every two weeks or something.

peace YO

totally exhusted, and a feel a headache coming on

I found out today that i will have the same rotation all through the first semester. 7:00am-1:00pm on thursdays and fridays. This is awesome, much better then going from days to evenings. Now i won't miss the O.C. hahahaha my god! ill have tones of time to do homework ...lol. Got my stethoscope today, it was pretty cheap to$22.95. My plan is to use this all through school and when i finish ill get a really good one.

$106 for an nursing assesment text book that i need for tomorrow, this is so shitty.

I had to clean up the garbage today, it was sooooo disgusting. Elizabeth keeps putting dirty diapers in all the garbages around the house so they smell like the most disgusting thing ever. And to add to that, i had put the garbage bag in the shed and locked it. The Raccoons broke open the shed door and ripped the bags apart. Because tomorrow is crazy grabage day i had to get all the garbage to the side of the house so mark can pick it up. No help from laura for anything so far! I still don't think she lives here yet!

Its really starting to get to me! I am gonna calm myself down though and just ignore it! I went for another run about 25min ago, i ran past Del and Zack. There are so many people around kingston now, its crazy. ahhh my rooms messy again and it feels like i just cleaned it.

here are some pictures from the Philthy McNasty's

i really think i am going to take a nap, the heavy eyes are kicking in mega time!

Elixir/ Stages Night,!

We met Elen in the line up for Elixir

Dallas, Hill and Lindsay

Dallas and Lindsay trying to dance on Stages packed dance floor

Lindsay walking home

Me on my way to drunk

Dallas and Me

Goodbye party town, I'll see you next july!

Today i got a call from the Coffee Cafe, may have a new job very soon. I really need to get out of mcdonalds.

Got my student card, this year the pictures are colorful. Wow maybe they aren't as cheap as they were last year. also got new guitar strings for my guitar, sooo happy. I wanna get a-hold of kori and see if him and I can hang out tonight. I havn't seen him for a little bit and i don't really wanna go out tonight. I just feel like chillin and talking.

Yesterday Christian saved my life. I thought the maternity books were due, but they aren't actually do till next semester for us (miranda has to get them done for the 8th, i feel bad for her, but OH Well)

I went down town to get a background check again, fuckin waste of money, but i have to get it done. I hate our stupid program rules. i just got one done last year.

Ran into Pat today, i havn't seen him all summer. He's working at Subway, the ontario st. one. He gave me some free food when i was there, so i gave him a drive to his new house. i kinda miss him. We used to be such good friends. Mike, pat and I, but then we kinda just faded apart

Later tonight .....

so went to philthy's tonight, i ran into Matt and .....oh man i forget that guys name! But ya anyway, i ran into them and never found greg, del and Zack ...oh well... i am pretty drunk so i may just pass out. The whole time i was there we kept losing each other and we would have to go around the whole place and looking for each other.

It was kinda funny cause we totally budded in line ....well i did and then i got everyone else to follow, it was awesome we would have been in the line for about 2 hours, but i am sooo slick hahaha. we all got drinks and then me and jackie decieded that we needed sleep so we toured. hopefully i won't be so hung over in the morning.

well talk to you all later, have a blast tonight ...or this morning!

waking up at 8:30am is not the "most Good" thing to do!

back from stages, the music sucked alot, but i ran into a few people. Ended up walking to mcdonalds with Shannon and Justin (i still have not eaten at mcdee's, its now been 5 days) Justin Smeared a Date square all over the window, alyson was not impressed.

So i was thinking about trying to get a job at the pita grill or maybe the sandwich contruction company! I met this girl in the line at elixir (we didn't end up going there) and she worked there and she said they would be looking for someone soon so it maybe a good idea.

SO i am tried! really tried, and i have to work i 9 hours so i should probably go to bed but don't worry i will do a worth while update soon! None of this bullshit quick talk!

Night