sometimes i am surprised

Today in EBP i put alot of feeling out there! I figure since thats what the presentations are about and they want them to be good i should ask some questions and even put some senerios out there for them. Most of the time i am ridiculed by the majority of the class, but today i was surprised to see a nice message on my MSn from one of my class mates

"Not that this may be all that inspirational to you but I think that you've really put a lot of your personal feelings out there in EBP class and I think that you have an outstanding character and put up with a lot of shit from people in the class".

and the great thing was this person is such an understanding person who has been through alot. I think she is an inspiriation to me. I remember last year i did a project with her and we touched on some deep subjects. I got to see inside her mind and how she delt with her situations. She is now a mother of two beautiful children and i know they will grow up to be stronge just like her!

On another note i am so glad that class is over.

Alot of the people in that class have no voice or perspectives on any of the topics. I know everyone goes through something in their life thats hard, but it seems most people don't want to share it. I like being an open person, i feel that i have nothing to be ashamed of. Everyone makes mistakes including me so if people know about mine im not going to run and hide.

Anyway enough of these breaks i need to get back to the studying.

coffee count: I have had 4 cups so far and just made some more coffee. lets getter done!

...tick tock, and it does get louder

Its 4:49 am, i have played like 9 billion games of backgammon and watched about 7 episodes of Gilmore Girls and yet my mind is a total buzz. I think i am just overwhelmed at the fact that i have finally finished that stupid portfolio. I didn't even know how much weight it was putting on me.

And while my mind is a buzz, my cat is, shall we say pretty much the same. He's been climbing all over my furniture. I could here him as i was attempting to fall asleep for the 3rd time this evening. Now he is prancing around infront of the computer screen. My head is pounding too, jesus, i really hope i can make it through tomorrow, i have a ton of studying to do still, but once that is over i am free. For 26 days. Wow 26 amazing fun filled, nothing nagging me days! I think i am in shock, who knew school sucked so completely much.

I was going over my writing today and i must say that i am pretty proud out how everything turned out in my portfolio, I know my way of tackling assignments is very unorthodox, but i find it works quite well!

My Game Plan;

(ohh i must type quieter, i might wake Miranda)

Get assignment ............

many days weeks and perhaps months go by....

then i finally say, i am going to set aside a weekend to finish this

weekend comes .........no work is completed!

this continues till about 2 - 3 days before big assignment. Than i slowly go at it like the assignment was just given out yesterday.

Finally finishing a few hours (and in some cases minutes) before the due date


Ahhh yes!

ok so now i am going to attempt to go back to sleep (not like i ever was asleep in the first place) maybe my cat will retire with me. nahhh there's no chance i am domed to be super tired tomorrow...i mean this morning, coffee is definetly in order for the day :) ohhh and bri left his travel mug.....Double score, now ill be able to carry around two cups of warm coffee.

I love you coffee on days like these, you may hurt my stomach some times but you are still a good friend ...I good friend would let you get drunk once in a while, till your puking on the floor in your bathroom ....i am not saying coffee makes me puke, cause it doesn't, but you know what does....................Fire Ball, that stuff has a bad smell memory attached to it.

well i have reached the point of no return i am so screw, and may i add sneezing like crazy all of a sudden. Man i hate getting sick, this better be some allergy to cats when they rub their tail on your face.

Anyway have a good morning, im gonna attempt to get some shut eye! 5:16 am

Its all so close i can feel it on my finger tips Part 1

I am sitting in Bri's lab at the moment waiting for him to finish checking over my critique paper. I actually just finished reading Das' site. everytime i think about him it brings me back to the "best summer of my life". I have never had so much fun, and i spent so much time with Tyler, Das, Jackie, Dallas, Scott and Lindsay and its time i will never want back.

So christmas is just around the corner and i have only got one present so far and its not even for my secret santa, i better get on that!!!!!!! I was thinking may be a nice little gift pack or meh i have no idea.

Last night i went to Purang's christmas party and i thought it was gonna be totally ackward but it really wasn't. They had tons of food and wine and beer which was way cool. I had 5 glasses ..i know a little to much and man those apitizers were greatness. We played ping pong..had a championship, i made it to the semi finals, i actually beat Hong! ( ya you did read it right, she is asian) sweet i am actually not half bad! I think i would have done even better if i was sober LOL.

Brian made it to the finals but was defeated by Ranhiu (not sure how to spell his name) But it was a respectable lose 19 - 21.

I am think about how good those perogies are going to be when i get home...the only sad thing is a have to study for theory tonight and tomorrow My final exam is on tuesday, then i have placement on wednesday. its all good though once this week is over ill be as happy as a pig in shit!

i don't think i mentioned the Computer science christmas party and i am to lazy to confirm that fact. so this may be a repeat. It was great the food was wicked and i ate way to much.

Friday night Bri, Jay and Me went bowling again, this time we went to Prost, that where the real bowling takes place. i boweled a 116 game "thats awesome" -jay

I feel like i am really improving! after that we went back to bri and jays and Bob and his native friend came over. We drank and got some what smashed. More Bob and native guy then me butdon't get me wrong "i felt it". it was to bad that Bob had to leave beacuse his native friend wanted to go to the BArs LOL i had to hold in my laughs. This native guy by the way looked like the ROCK. anywho i shoudl probably get back to work

Part 2 will come very shortly!


ummmm sugar crytals found in the bottom of brians drawer Yummy!

Jesus Christ i can't take this place anymore

I have been having some trouble over the last month and a half living in this house with these 5 other girls. Now don't get Me wrong i really like 4 out of the 5 of them. I love hangin out with them, but when it comes to living with them i can't take it. Its seems to be that i can't take the way they live and i have put my foot down.

The kitchen has been a mess for about a week and a half and the dishwasher has been loaded with the same dishes for just as long. I had said from the start that i didn't want to use the dishwasher because it doesn't clean well, the soap is expensive and it uses hydro and water and shit. Anyway all summer we went with out using the dishwasher ....UNtil Laura got here and she was obviously to lazy to washer here own goddamn dishes. I final had it this morning. I had been telling Laura for like a week that the kitchen was disgusting and to clean it and get her fuckin beer bottles out of my site. She still hasn't done it and ontop of that i let her and her fuckin friends use my Nintendo and no the wall plug and TV plug is missing. I told her that she better get it back to me tonight or i am seriously going to rip at her. She also broke my microwave plate and still hasn't replaced it.

So anyway this morning i went up stairs and took all my dishes, utensils and glasses and put them in my room so when i want to have a drink of water ill have a cup to put the water in.

I may sound like i am freaking out for no reason, but i have a standard in which i like to live my life and they are not facilitating that so i will take my own actions to make it happen.

Christmas decorations

Me and Miranda decided to go out yesterday and get decorations for the tree and a snow shovel for the driveway. I figured out how much everyone owed me and her and then posted it on the board and also showed everyone what we got. The first thing out of their mouths were why did you get expensive shit....... And then i let them know how much a shovel was and that it wasn't expansive. These people don't fuckin care about anything anyone does for them. I took time out of my day to go get stuff for the tree so that when Dallas came home last night we could decorate it, but all they do is complain. I give up, i am never doing anything nice for them again. I am sick and tired of being that bad guy asking for money and telling people to clean up their messes.

Oh and because i knew that i would have a hard time getting the money from everyone, i decided to factor it into the hydro bill so instead of everyone paying $51 and still owing me $14.17 each i just added it to their hydro bill and subtracted it from my amount. All of a sudden Dallas says this isn't happening. Because she can't afford it. So i ask her "are you going to pay me what you owe me?" she says yes! And i say well then don't pay me and just added it to hydro bill...Less money exchange that way! But no she doesn't understand. eerrrrrrr frustration. I can't wait till May comes and i can get out of this house for good and ill never live with more then one other person again.

i think i feel a tad better!